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pretty sure science of selling yourself short was actually written by me, not less than jake.
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[27 Aug 2009|03:21am] |
today was a bad sick day. couldn't get out of bed all day except to teach, been in bed all night. no sleep in sight.
i miss being healthy.
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[21 May 2009|02:03pm] |
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i would be having horrible, terrible break outs right now if i didn't have my dermalogica.
unfortunately, i'm still having some pretty indecent bumps. make them go away. i'm 20 years old, not 13.
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| i'm going to be 21 in a few weeks, and i can't even explain how it feels. |
[30 Apr 2009|11:16am] |
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i really wish i had the ability to spill it all out on livejournal. but i can't. i guess i lost it when i actually learned how to put idioms together in college. it's the same everytime - when things are actually happening, important decisions are being weighed upon, true events are occuring - nobody has time to play the scribe.
and let's face it, livejournal minus the drama is a lot like perez hilton without the cum drizzles.
nothing to say except things are changing so fast my body feels like it's in some kind of sadistic limbo contest.
this summer is my last as an undergrad. probably my last in west virginia for at least 4 years. once through these finals, i start applying for some crazy internships abroad. probably going to do next summer somewhere far, far away.
kara graduates nursing school in a few days, and starts her real job as a nurse. at least she's still going to be finishing up her undergrad degree, otherwise, i'd start feeling like real life was closing in too hard.
on the other hand, browsing and shopping grad schools, i've faced a cold fact: at least 4 years of school left, probably more like 5. phDs are hard to come by in the english spectrum; it takes real published works, etc. luckily for me i've already been published multiple times locally and for a national scholarship, but it's still daunting. kind of like gearing up for a gauntlet of paper writing, nail biting, and late nights.
re-reading that made me feel like a ernie macmillion from harry potter. that pompous stinksap git.
i just finished teaching my fifth course. i've really reached my stride with my students, and now i can answer any question concerning trig, calc, algebra of differing degrees, grammar, and other reading/english questions with ease. i have to say it's helped keep my mind sharp and strong in other areas; i'll need it next semester with microbiology, my first full fledged science course in a while. strange to go from teaching to being taught and then back to teaching. strange to know that i've finally found my calling. strange to know you can actually make money doing something you love.
life happens. and then, every now and then, it'll remind you of how fast it all goes.
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| THERES NO CRYING IN BASEBALL |
[17 Apr 2009|05:33am] |
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i hate people that are purposefully quirky.
who are you kidding ? you are not cooler than anyone. you are not prettier than anyone. you've mastered how to make yourself good in pictures, and mayhaps another form of digital copying.
for some reason, the more effort i see in people being different, the madder i get. get the fuck out, and take your fucking bicycle riding, 99 red balloon holding ass with you.
(author's note, i like bicycles, and the song 99 red balloons, but i do hate the exploitation of both)
in that same vein, if the world's hipsters would please stop making me seem cool by preferring the beer with the blue ribbon to the beer that is nicknamed the beast with good reason, i would really appreciate it. i hate looking like i'm making a damn statement when i'm all i'm doing is being broke and drinking beer in west virginia.
and WHOEVER INVENTED SHUDDER SHADES, YOU CAN GO HANG OUT WITH MC HAMMER PANTS.
alright, i think i'm done spitting the hate for the night.
if ever you're feeling cynical, please look up susan boyle online. she'll change your mood. i got legit choked up, and legit almost cried. i felt like i was in some kind of weird alternative universe where i have an overall optimistic outlook and i like most of the population of the world. crazy, right ?
i forgot what it was like to not be an asshole, but it quickly came back.
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| the times they are a'changing |
[03 Apr 2009|03:59am] |
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i am getting my fucking mind blown almost everyday.
being grown up isn't half as fun as growing up.
and insert any other cliche lyric about being grown up and EVERY SINGLE THING AND PERSON EVER HAS DONE LOST THEIR RESPECTIVE MIND/COURSE.
good grief, charlie brown.
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| i hate the social scene of today. |
[10 Mar 2009|06:04am] |
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why are there so many of them, and so few of us ?
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| the proof is on paper in front of me |
[05 Mar 2009|03:24am] |
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going back to listen to my favorite songs and re-reading some of the most important books from my growing up period, i've realized something.
i understand them on a completely different level now. it's like, they just...started making more sense one day.
why do i feel so old lately ?
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| chris brown ruins lives. |
[19 Feb 2009|11:06pm] |
dear chris brown -
i hope you get your sorry dumb-hook-recycling-no-talent-ugly-mug-repitive-overhyped-overplayed-ass popped.
just because you're famous doesn't mean you shouldn't be held responsible. kiss kiss on that, weinerbag.
can we now stop hearing him on the radio ?
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| this is probably going to make you throw up, but i'm just really happy. |
[16 Feb 2009|06:53pm] |
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each valentine's day is better than the last. i have the best boyfriend in the world, and i am so in love.
that's kind of ridiculous and gag-enducing, but it's so true. he's the best valentine. and that's a pretty big achievement considering the last time i spent valentine's day without a boyfriend was, oh, yeah - SEVENTH grade.
maybe that has something to say about my dependancy problems.
or maybe that has something to say that i love my boyfriend so much, together FOUR AND A HALF YEARS.
and i can't wait for the next year. or the next. or the next next next next years.
2008 was incredible. 2009 has been even better. i hope it stays this way.
anddd weee cannn liveeee likkeee thisss foreeeverrrrr.
[you're just jealous cause we're young and in love].
ps. I NEED YOUR ADDRESSES. ktnx. <33
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| so here's your holiday... |
[09 Feb 2009|07:53am] |
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glad to see blink 182 staying together for the kids.
punpunnypunpunpun.
but really. i'm actually excited for all the new releases from all the great bands of old this year. brand new, blink, green day, nfg, mxpx, thursday, thrice - maybe this is the year music makes a comeback. i mean hell, the get up kids got back together. they just went on a holiday too.
punnnnnnnypun. =)
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| 2009 has been amazing so far |
[02 Feb 2009|12:15am] |
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i've been hanging out with my three best friends everyday since thursday, with a large pot-luck style dinner for superbowl at the apartment culminating it. usually during school we don't get to spend so much time together, and it's been strengthening and bonding us even closer. i usually hang with rita everyday, but having both kara and whit there has just been twice the fun.
it's been such a grand, relaxing weekend. exactly what i needed. i just sounded like such a ninny.
back to the grind of an insane workload, plus teaching kids grammar, geo/trig, algebra 1&2, english, and how to basically kickass on the SAT on tuesday. i love teaching, and i love my classes this semester, but sometimes it feels like my brain is constantly on simmer. i've been reading cheesy mystery novels and watching seasons of mad men to make up for it. paging joan holloway's body, please ?
my boyfriend is kind of the cutest thing in the world when he's sleeping. even if he is a steelers fan. but he's buying our hawaiian plane tickets this week, so i can't complain too much.
this was a pointless entry. good times and a damn good week a'waitin.
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| i have a story to tell, but the thing is - i can't write, talk, or organize. fuck me. |
[22 Jan 2009|11:44pm] |
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all my high school kids from my two courses are adding me on facebook and it's really hilarious to look at their facebook pictures. "WHATS IN MY RED CUP LOLZ" pictures are rampant. my favorite was the beer can covered in duct tape. really ?? REALLY ?
being around them really puts my own high school career in perspective. what the fuck were 20+ year olds doing hanging around me and my fellow high school friends ? i guess lack of anyone else with a pulse would be the answer. but just being eons above and away from that person at 16 now that I'M the 20 year old makes it all seem ironic and slightly slapstick.
one day, i'm going to channel the spirits of jeanette walls, jeffrey eugenides, and kurt vonnegut all at the same time and write a poignantly-tragic-yet-not-overly-heavyhanded-and-still-deeply-witty-and-bitingly-realistic memoir that will make me filthy rich. i will then live a deeply fabulous life, and laugh at all the people who actually think it means a shit.
because as we should all know, especially if you're reading this, that while i have traveled the world, met extremely multi-faceted/interesting people, been born the biological daughter of two off-kilter eccentric and endearing parents with two extremely off kilter family sets, gone from the rungs of every social ladder to rest somewhere above "kid that smells and hangs out at the java joint" and below "kid who still enjoys rap music", had a rather tragic run-in with health/sports/career/life/learning how to ski, and had a sundry list of odd, almost outright completely unbelievable situations/actions/experiences occur in my knowledge or in direct result of my situation/action/experience; i am still an asshole.
and not even a very funny one.
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| patting myself on the back blog: warning, will enduce vomitting. |
[19 Jan 2009|07:40am] |
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expected graduation date: december 2009.
i have to start looking for grad schools, and ones that have the 3 year ph.D program i need. my literary studies professor gave me the best christmas gift ever this year - he bundled together all the essays and notes i took in his class, photocopied them, and mailed them to me in a portfolio. he added notes of +/-, and what areas i need to work on for different literary thesis study and my strengths in new criticism theological/sociological breakdowns. he even had a little note of encouragement, telling me i'd go far. i had no idea he was going to do that, and i knew i was one of his favorite students, but it really made my confidence soar. because of that little pick me up, i'm going to start applying for the schools that i was a little hesitant to apply for before. columbia class of 2012 ?
i'm thinking about taking summer classes at flagler. if i want to graduate in 2009, i HAVE to take summer classes, because it's still earlier than my normal graduation date. and why not take it at the most beautiful college in the USA ? i've already been accepted, and since my parents nipped the idea of me transferring to finish out senior year (wouldhavebeenincredibleandgivenmeabigboostforgraduateschoolbahhumbug), i think that it would be incredible just to hang out there for a few months. but don't worry, my parents will think of some other reason for me not to go.
spring break- hawaii with derek. staying with my aunt cathy for a week on maui, with a one day excursion to ohau so derek can go to honolulu - he's been to all 48 continental state capitals, and he wants to add hawaii, haha. still not a hundred percent as we're still shopping around plane tickets, but stupid egypt is definitely out of the picture. it's a good thing we had decided to wait another two days before we booked, because now we'd be stuck with a trip to a place that's kind of volatile at the moment. i WILL go to egypt eventually though! stupid israel. if hawaii for some reason falls through, my mom and i traded the timeshare for a week in the keys, just like we did last year so that me, kara, rita, michael, ryan, and elizabeth all got to stay in st. augustine for free. kara+ryan+me+derek in the florida keys for spring break would be granddd, but this timeshare has a $800 transferral fee (it's a houseboat, haha) and with all the other costs of getting down there, i don't know how it's going to work out.
after that, i'll be going on a cruise with the fam in june, and then back to disney world with derek in september, per usual. i'm sure a few trips to chicago and maybe one more to st. augustine will be thrown in there, AND I CAN'T WAIT. i've gotta get out of west virginia for an extended time. and i've still gotta figure out a study abroad/go abroad and hang out program. if all my cousins did it, by god i'm going to do it. haha.
2008 was a great year for me. but i think 2009 is going to be my real year to shine.
/excitement
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[05 Jan 2009|01:07am] |
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2009.
time to lay aside old feuds, start new thinking and attitude, and apply myself to my full potential. it's going to be a big fucking year.
and this gaza fighting bullshit is really putting a cramp in my egypt plans for spring break, dammit.
i'm reading anna karenina and it always makes me cry. not even three chapters into it, and i'm sobbing. sometimes i feel like we share more than just a name. i want to go to the apartment in huntington, lock myself in for an entire day, and watch romantic period movie after romantic period movie. i've been in one of those kind of moods.
annddddd i have the best boyfriend in the world. seeing him everyday isn't enough - i miss him when we're apart. it's amazing how people can change, and then make you fall in love with the new person all over again. nobody makes me laugh like him. i feel loved and loving this week.
my resolution this year is to let go. let go of the inconsquential, and the baggage. both physical and mental. 2008 was a truly great year, but i think it was just the beginning. fuck yeah, we can live like this.
add me on ( TWITTER! )
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| myspace bulletin brought to livejournal spotlight. |
[03 Jan 2009|06:17pm] |
i realize that i am under no definition "skinny".
but if i see one more ridiculous ad for weight loss, modeled by photoshop altered amoebas i am going to find their houses and shit in their beds.
and don't think that i'm not slightly miffed that the blonde girl with curls and glasses isn't patronizing me by switching from "fat" (suspiciously similar to my own body) to "skinny", a weird adrongenous form of herself AS I WRITE THIS VERY SENTENCE.
if we can cure limp weiners, why can't we cure a few stray lipids ?
i wish that you could press a button in your head, and completely erase a word from your vernacular. i'd say "diet" and "drama" would be the first to go. not because i don't know what drama "is" but because i'm sick of people overusing that word.
example.
Susie Q: I HATE DRAMA AND BITCHEZ !
revised, after button installation.
Susie R: I HATE THOSE WHO TRY TO BRING ABOUT HEIGHTENED SELF-SATISFACTION AND ESTEEM BY PUTTING DOWN OR CAUSING OTHERS PAIN, STRIFE, OR IRRITATION THROUGH UNNECESSARY AND OFTEN TEDIOUS FORMS OF MANIPULATION, BETRAYAL, AND GOSSIP.
AND BITCHEZ !
much more satisfactory.
and i want diet to banish mostly because i want to try to pretend that such a monstrous thing doesn't actually exist.
because truth be told, while i am making a "resolution" to lose all the weight i've gained in the past two years by being more healthy in 2009, (mostly because not being able to run up a flight of stairs without feeling slightly like i'd just been thrown out of a rather fast-moving rollarcoaster has started to become ridiculously annoying) i am pretty happy with my life, my body, and my circumstances.
so suck on that, blondie.
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| it's a new year, baby. |
[01 Jan 2009|04:01pm] |
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i love my best friends. i'm way too lucky to have some of the funniest, most attractive, entertaining, and loyal friends out there.
here's to 2009 and what lays ahead. <3
( quick lowdown: )
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[28 Dec 2008|06:43pm] |
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2008, LISTED.
Top 20 Albums
*this is in no real order for me, & i couldn't even get to 20. new music sucks, and so does trying to discover new music in west virginia. love, anna.
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1) New Surrender - Anberlin
2) Only By the Night - Kings of Leon
3) Volume One - She and Him (if you haven't heard them yet, GO GET THEM.
SOOO GOOD !)
4) Just Say Yes - Punchline
5) Dear Science - TV on the Radio
6) Skip School, Start Fights - Hit the Lights
7) The Glass Passenger - Jack's Mannequin
8) Pretty.Odd - P!ATD
9) Skeletal Lamping - Of Montreal
10) Narrow Stairs - Death Cab (could have been better.)
11) Perfect Symmetry - Keane
12) Innerpartysystem - Innerpartysystem
13) Shhhh Just Go With It - Every Avenue
14) Paper Trail - TI
15) One Of The Boys - Katy Perry
16) Appeal to Reason - Rise Against
17) Weezer Red Album (i'm assuming it's called that) - Weezer (even though it sucked for weezer, it's still better than most of the shit this year.)
18) the stuff that was on their myspace - The Wedding
19) Popularity - Jonezetta (not the name of the album but i don't have the right name on my itunes. true story.)
20) Viva la Vida - Coldplay (higher on my other list, until i realized that most of their shit is ripped off AND i forgot every avenue !)
that was kind of painful. i have pretty terrible taste in music, but STILL.
Top 15 Movies
1) WALL*E !
2) The Duchess
3) The Dark Knight
4) Quantum of Solace
5) Burn After Reading. or Ocean's 13. whichever is real 2008.
6) Let The Right One In
7) Mamma Mia
8) Sex and the City
9) 27 Dresses
10) The Pineapple Express
11) Prince Caspian bahaha
12) Slumdog Millionaire (thank you illegal downloading)
13) Miss Pettigrew Lives for a Day
14) Rambo.
15) Rachel Getting Married
can you tell i'm a girl ?
Top 10 TV Shows
1) Project Runway
2) True Blood
3) Mad Men
4) Dexter
5) Entourage
6) The Tudors
7) Weeds
8) Diners, Drive-ins, and Dives
9) The Colbert Report/The Daily Show
10) Top Chef
so if it's not the food network, hbo/showtime, or fake news i don't watch it.
Top 5 Favorite Moments
1) Realizing what I wanted to be when I grow up. (the number one chick when i'm stepping on the scene, obv.)
2) Getting accepted to Flagler
3) Disney World/St.Augustine
4) Spring Break
5) Singalongs with my best friends at my apartment, in cars, on roadtrips, and in regular life.
<3
Top 4 Books
i don't even really know when books come out, i just read an incredible amount of books a year. so i'm going to guess by the modern ones i've liked this year that i'm pretty sure came out in 2008.
1) The House of Meetings - Martin Amis
2) The American Wife - Curtis Something
3) And Then We Came to An End - Josh Farris
4) From Dead to Worse - Charlaine Harris (guilty pleasure)
Top 3 Songs
SO MANY TO CHOOSE FROM. so i'm going to pick the ones that are especially catchy, as opposed to especially good. hahaha.
1) Sex on Fire - Kings of Leon
2) Welcome Home - Jonezetta
3) Dancing Choose - TV on the Radio
Top 2 Friends
123456789) Rita/Kara.
Top Quote
1) "JOKES ON YOU!!!!!"
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